Monday, January 30, 2012

The Best Remedy

To preface, I have been feeling pretty down lately. Physically, emotionally, mentally, completely drained. I haven't been able to make it to a full block of church in what seems like quite some time, to the temple in even longer.

Today started out no different-- I knew when I woke up I would not make it to church. I actually assumed I would not make it off the couch the rest of the day, and tried to make plans accordingly. I felt sad, weak, Tired, and like a burden to those around me. All this compounded upon the physical infirmities of the last little while made for a very troubled young woman at the start of this Sabbath day.

Through the day, my external circumstances did not improve. In fact, they may have worsened. But this evening, I feel better than I have in a very long while. The change came slowly, and completely unexpectedly, step by step:
-- an accidental visit by the home preachers (which quickly turned into an intentional one-- love those guys!)
-- a relocated-to-my-apartment visiting teaching visit, resulting in strengthened friendships with two beautiful girls
--a phone call from an old friend, resulting in much religious discussion and uplifting conversation
-- priesthood service from the home-preachers (two visits in one day!! I'm so lucky.)
--A random text message from two old roommates
--those two former roommates coming over and letting me help make cute bookmarks for Relief Society sisters
--a ride (I can't really walk far) two blocks south, to look at the (amazing) condo I'm moving into
--sitting on the couch at the new condo (at least it was a change of scenery, if not activity) and having the pleasure of wonderful company the rest of the evening/night/morning. Wonderful company. (They drove me home pretty much as soon as I got brave enough to stand. Turns out, laughing is exhausting [and pretty painful when your innards are mad at you])
--like I mentioned, a ride home and help to the door.

I definitely needed help at that point-- even just sitting and talking and listening can really take it out of a person. My body is beaten down, but my spirit feels lighter than it has all week!


Andon, Katie, and Camilla said...

Did you find a condo! That's great news!

Sabina Michelle said...

I only found a condo for the summer-- we decided I should live in single student housing for the summer, and Mom would come down toward the end of summer. That will give us a little extra time to find a functional apartment for Mom and I. But it is fabulous news! I'm pretty excited about it.

:cassia marie: said...

awesome about finding a place for summer, and i really enjoy the new layout of the blog :) i'm sorry life has been so rough lately, you're doing great things though, and relying on the strength from the gospel and the Lord is the best thing you can do! (which you already knew of course, but i'm just glad you still are.) :)